Today was the last day of autumn & instead of appreciating it, I was stuck inside attempting to study challenging history. Typical life of a trying HSC student. By this time next year, I would have no excuses to not enjoy the last day of fall. I can’t wait for the next step; waiting to get out of this bubble is like waiting for a solid solution for global warming. I’ve realised Im trying to sacrifice a lot of things in my life for a high 90 number yet I haven’t completely let go of the sacrifices. I’d thought it’d be easy, I was wrong.

I gave up THIS.....



...for THIS

Winter tomorrow, Half the year tomorrow… The cold awaits. I’ll try to forget by shifting my excitement to Winter fashion, hello big trench coats, colourful scarves, leather gloves, rainbow socks and boots! Not to mention, hot chocolate, hibernation and warm hugs!

My saviour.

Listening to Carolina Liar - All that Shit is gone

I never got it right,

that's how this breaks down.

I never see things through,

I always carry the weight for you, for you.

Labels: May, winter

Labels: visual thoughts

Im in desperate need of an mp3 player…..or a bigger memory stick because my phone memory can only hold only 80 songs and its making me angry deleting and not being able to fit more music….. Im angry thinking about it now!

I want to walk through more scenery like this:

Its just simply… stunning, it makes me appreciate all the beauty in the world just a little bit more.

Right now.... All I want to do is listen to heart-felt music like The Raveonettes and Iron&wine while walking through these scenes…alone.

Labels: nature

Sometimes the people who raise you cant think for themselves, we're living in the 21st century not in the cave era. Open your eyes and stop being so subjective! I love my parents alot but sometimes the theories they come up with, their opinions.. are so stupid. If i could speak proper vietnamese or if they could speak english well, I could argue my case more effectively but because of that barrier... all I can do is just argue it to someone who DOES understand me.

Im not one of those kids who obey their parents every single word and think their parents are always 100 percent right.. Im rather quite rebellious and treat my parents not as my elders but more like people who are levelled with me. I don't care when their wrong..

Although my mother has many aspects that are admirable.. I wouldnt want to grow up to be like her, I want to be stronger, more opinated and stand up for what I believe in despite the consequences. As for my children, I dont want them growing up with subjective parents, I promise, I will listen to every request and negotiate for a suitable outcome.

Labels: parents, thoughts

I am so glad your're back in my life, I must admitt I have denied this for the past five months but I really missed you.

We're Strong as metal.. no even stronger :)

I think being pessimistic is necessary to be optimistic again because sometimes being pessimistic is real. There is no such thing as a fairytale so we need some form of mechanism to wake us up to reality.

Forming a strong solid heart doesn’t come naturally. One who gets hurt multiple times, forms a barrier to protect themselves so next time, it won’t hurt as much, that’s why being hurt for the first time feels like the end of the world but when it happens again, you would have already experienced it and know what to expect. Experiencing something for the first time is hard and unpredictable that’s why its so hard to let go of your first love, first heartbreak, first pair of jimmy choos, first best friend however, first, is just the beginning so be thankful for what they have given you and be grateful for stepping/being in/to your life.

I can’t believe I am seventeen, seventeen is the age of most teenage shows, seventeen is a combination of youth and maturity, and seventeen is when you’re meant to fall in love. I guess I am a late bloomer in that stage, I don’t think I’ll be falling in love in the next 8 months, therefore I must cross high school sweetheart off the ‘things that should happen’ list.

I might have lacked hope for the past year but I know ‘good times are going to come’. Patience has never been present within me but its slowly progressing…..

Listening to Kate Voegele – Its only life
take your hesitance,
and your self defense,
leave them behind,
it's only life,
don't be so afraid of facing every day,
just take your time,
it's only life,
i'll be your stepping stone,
don't be so alone,

P.S I forgot to say on Sunday , HAPPY 17TH PAUL
We’ll make it through !
Sofia J- A taste <3

Labels: seventeen, thoughts

My Latest time consuming obsession!

Labels: cruise control, HSC

No I haven’t disappeared off the face of the earth; I just haven’t been blogging due to certain circumstances such as being capped, procrastination, more procrastination….

I have so much work piled up due to my naïve behaviour; I am back to square one.

Nothings progressing, nothings moving, I still sit on my seat making inappropriate comments and not taking action :)

On a happier note, I’ve found my dream boy, who does not exist because his a character, but almost perfect is acceptable, INTRODUCING….

LEE JUN PYO

Labels: boys over flowers, dream boy

; vivacious vee (k) says:
i have to go school early tmr too
. melαin says:
why?
; vivacious vee (k) says:
breakfast club
. melαin says:
LOL wth..
. melαin says:
u cheaparse
; vivacious vee (k) says:
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHAHHHAHA
; vivacious vee (k) says:
NOO
; vivacious vee (k) says:
its captains duty !!
. melαin says:
sure... 8-)
. melαin says:
vee i`ll jst bring you food okay..
. melαin says:
jst sleep in or something i dnt want u to be tired, u shudnt wake up so early for free food, its jst not right

Labels: msn

Labels: anger, ignorance, thoughts

To Get Out Of Here.

Excuse my foul language but fuck you periods, why must women tackle all the pain.. physically and emotionally? Men have it easy, all they have to worry about is how much women they sleep with. They feel half the pain that we feel.. for example in a break up, majority men move on faster NOT because their stronger but because they simply dont give a fuck, heartless bastards. What do we have to put up with? Giving birth, feeling physical pain about once a month and experiencing mood swings almost everyday. Then there's the worry list.. worry about your image, about your relationships, wedding dress, reputation..... why is it that a man can sleep with as much women as he wants and get away with it while if a woman does that..she is labelled a slut?

Sorry for the bias entry, must be my mood swings & shit day.

Listening to
Coldplay - Square One

Labels: anger, periods