Labels: high school

"Love is magical comfort food for the weak and uneducated. Yeah, it makes you feel

all warm and relevant but in the end it leaves you weak, dependant and fat!"

- Connor Mead, Ghosts of Girlfriends Past

After hearing the word 'study' 5658086708506 times this year and then having to hear it again next year, it should be exhausting yet its not. Let me tell you why, I found out that my course offers a semester to Harvard University, with conditions of course. However, finding that out was refreshing as this year I have not aspire to study as much as I wanted to. Now I actually have something to work for instead of a number. Going to an Ivy League to study Law has always been a dream for me ever since I was of a young age. Now that I've gotten this opportunity, Im not going to let it get away. So, friends, I may not see you in the next 4 years as I will be working towards my dream. In the end, it'll be worth it. ITS HARVARD. Barack Obama studied law there. How pretentious........I literally spoke so fast, my heart raced & told the whole world when I found this out. I believe its about 50 K for a semester but my brother/mother are willing to pay half for me so in the next 4 years, I have to save 25 K. Its possible. Definately.

Good news in a dull, grey area of life.

Yesterday was my last party till the end of HSC. Paul's and his friend's (forget their names) 18th was pretty good. Lots of dancing, mingling and photos made the night eventful. I did encounter a visit from the past at the party. Pretty awkward and when I decided to talk to my 'friend' from the past, they were nowhere to be found. Opportunity grasped too late I guess.

Three weeks left till the dreaded finals.

listening to Colbie Calliat - The Little things

P.S. Congrats Death Cab for Cutie's Meet me at the Equinox to be theme song of the New anticipiated sequel to Twilight, New Moon. Can't wait for the Soundtrack. Heard it's excellent!

Labels: death cab for cutie, dreams

No, these photos have not been photoshopped or editted in any way. I woke up in a sepia world. It was amazing. In my whole 17 years, I've never seen anything like this. Although my thoughts changed, when I actually went outside, as the dust was very irritating the whole day. There were many remarks such as "Uluru exploded" and the "world is ending". It did feel like a scene from a scary movie.

As I was driving to school in a dirt-filled car (outside), I pondered about the representation of this unfamilar environment. What did it actually represent? A breakdown in the beauty of the city? or something more personal... such as the breakdown of people in this town? This event inspired me.





Mystery in form

The city erupted in questions as the city filled with red dust
The sepia-like sky and the covered sun, gave us insecurities and mistrust.
Was it bad or beauty?
Or perhaps both.
Both representing the beauty in the breakdown
and the breakdown in the beauty
And as I follow the unanswered, I saw a white dove,
Flying across the thick dust
My answer was clear.

Listening to Love Letter - Lisa Mitchell

Labels: literature, unusual

The HSC has not only brought out the stress in people but it has brought out the arrogance, ignorance and the excessive exaggerations. The term 'study' has been overly used that it has lost its meaning. Everyone uses that excuse to skip outings etc etc. I highlight the word excuse because they say their 'studying' when they actually dont. if you dont want to go to a party, then just say so, stop using the over-used excuse of "I want to study" and then on the night, you don't try at all. If you are going to skip a social event because of study, then at least mean what you say because skipping a social event because of lies, is unfair to the friends and the host.

Thats my two cents.

R.I.P Jason Tran & Kevin Phan

Although I have never met you, I hope you guys are in a better place. Many of my friends are mourning over the lossess so judging from that, you guys will be greatly missed.

This year is such a tragic year, hope things get better after October.

Sorry for the lack of visuals, I promise I'll put more effort into my blogs when the time comes.

Labels: thoughts

Moments that are priceless
Moments that require little effort to do yet hold such great value
Moments that when reminsced, is smiled upon, wished to re-enact.
Moments that allow you to forget everything and everyone.


This would be the cherry on top of a hard and struggling year.

Labels: thoughts

I want to go to the park and sit and read and listen to thoughtful music. I want to run around in pretty floral dresses and listen to the strumming of the guitar and lie around a midst the sun rays talking about nothing with a particular someone. ‘Particular Someone’ so vague, so superficial. Why is it as humans we always crave love, a companion, why is it studies have shown that people are happier in relationships? Why can’t we be independent and rely on ourselves, be happier by ourselves? Why can’t I live by myself and focus on myself without the craving of sharing my successes with another. Why are most songs and movies projected from a love story? Why can’t majority of music be about butterflies and birds and poverty in third world countries? I want to move away from the superficial world & fall into the unknown. I need a holiday.

Labels: thoughts

I just ate a slabfull of maccas. A large meal with two other products on the side. Right now, I feel sick and probably won’t look at food till the end of the day today. There are a lot of things on my mind lately when it shouldn’t be. All that should be on my mind is scoring that perfect score of 90+. I don’t know how a friend of mine does it. She’s so oblivious to everything else as her full concentration is on her future. I envy her so damn much. I don’t even know why I bother blog; no one ever reads it.

Labels: reflection, week